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About Life, In Spite of Me

She wanted to die. God had other plans.

Overwhelmed by wave after wave of emotional trauma, Kristen Anderson no longer wanted to live. One January night, determined to end her pain once and for all, the seventeen-year-old lay across train tracks not far from her home and waited to die.
Instead of peace, she found herself immersed in a whole new nightmare.
Before the engineer could bring the train to a stop, thirty-three freight cars passed over her at fifty-five miles per hour. After the train stopped and Kristen realized she was still alive, she looked around—and saw her legs ten feet away.
Surviving her suicide attempt but losing her legs launched Kristen into an even deeper battle with depression and suicidal thoughts, as well as unrelenting physical pain—all from the seat of a wheelchair. But in the midst of her darkest days, Kristen discovered the way to real life and a purpose for living.
For anyone struggling to find the strength to go on, the message of this heart-wrenching yet hope-building book is a clear and extraordinary reminder that even when we give up on life, God doesn’t give up on us. 
Includes notes of encouragement from Kristen and resources for suicide prevention.


Life, In Spite of Me is a remarkable story of life beyond despair and hope that triumphs over tragedy.” 
   —Louie Giglio, pastor, Passion City Church/The Passion Movement

“Suicide is a liar and a thief. It promises peace to those who are escaping but delivers unimaginable pain and rejection to those left behind. Kristen Jane Anderson’s riveting story unmasks the thief and gives hope a face.”
   —Dr. Dennis Rainey, president, FamilyLife Ministries

“When I first met Kristen, I was overwhelmed with her smile, and then I saw her wheelchair. It was a defining moment for me. I had not heard her story or why she’d ended up at Moody. But it was her smile—and it is still her smile—that dismantles me. Kristen has something. It is something otherworldly. She had every reason to die, but now she has every reason to live. I hope you’ll read her story, see her smile, and know why she lives.”
   —Michael Easley, former president, Moody Bible Institute

From the Hardcover edition.

About Kristen Jane Anderson

Kristen Jane Anderson has been featured on Oprah and is a popular speaker at colleges, women’s and youth events, churches, and suicide prevention outreaches. A graduate of Moody Bible Institute and the founder of Reaching You Ministries, Kristen seeks to help those who are hurting, hopeless, lost, suicidal and depressed.
Tricia Goyer is the author of three hundred articles for national periodicals, as well as fourteen novels and six nonfiction books, including Blue Like Play Dough.

Product Details

224 pages | Published by Multnomah

On Sale Date: May 17, 2011

Trim Size: 5-3/16 x 8

Carton Quantity: 24

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She wanted to die. God had other plans.

Click here to download chapter one of Life, In Spite of Me.

For anyone struggling to find the strength to go on, the message of this heart-wrenching yet hope-building book is a clear and extraordinary reminder that even when we give up on life, God doesn’t give up on us. 

Click here to download chapter one of Life, In Spite of Me.

By Debra Childers

This book must be read with tissues nearby. I was nearly crying by the second page. And even when there were wonderful, joyous moments in the book, they made me want to cry. It is such a beautiful book, I'm not even sure I can describe it accurately. If I were a youth leader (and God willing, I will be in the future), I would make this required reading for every single student in my youth group. Boys and girls both. She does such a wonderful...

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By Sharon Clark

Kristen has come a very long way and has a tremendous testimony which she shares in 'Life, In Spite of Me: Extraordinary Hope After a Fatal Choice' , her online ministry, and in speaking engagements. As a child her life was carefree and joyous then things started changing and everything seemed dark and hopeless. She got to the point of wanting to end her life and that is actually the beginning of the worst and best of her life. Kristen...

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By Nora St Laurent

"If only I could have figured out how to deal with all the pain inside before it came to this. I was never trying to hurt anyone, yet I had. Especially myself." I had seen a video of Oprah Winfrey interviewing Kristen; it was powerful. I remember thinking how could this girl be smiling? When Multnomah offered a review copy of this book, I quickly signed up to help spread the word about the testimony of Christ moving in and through this...

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By Mara Kim

Kristin had a fleeting thought. If she were to kill herself, what method would she choose? Her method of choice became a reality. A method that she knew that she would never survive. No bringing her back to life. It was perfect. Or, was it? One night, Kristin overwhelmed with life saw a train in the distance. With the perfect opportunity, she laid herself across the train tracks. She should have died but God had other plans. Have you...

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By Jamie Little

Overwhelmed with choices she had made and consequences of these choices, Kristen Anderson made a decision to put an end to it all. One cold January night, she lay down in the path of an oncoming freight train. Before the engineer can bring the train to a stop, Kristen has been run over by 33 train cars. After she wakes up in the hospital, all she can remember is opening her eyes and seeing her legs laying 10 feet away from her. It's nothing...

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